We'll Be A Dream....

Hey again! yay, im gonna go back to writing everyday!! :)
well today was eh-ish. i woke up to being informed that my dad actually paid for child support this month!! he gave us $200!!! :O doesnt sound like much but you know my dad, he doesnt pay any money. at all. ever. haha so my mom was like, "lets go shopping!" so we got ready and were headed off to ontario mills to go to Hollister<3 i was very happy. but while we were on the freeway, she put on some oldies music. i made a couple jokes about it and she got really mad at me. then she started crying. and i felt so so bad. so she turned around and we went back home:( but she just dropped us off and left. she was gone for like 2 hours. i didnt even know where she was. but while she was gone, i made her cupcakes that said 'i <3 u' and put them on a plate with 2 licorices bent to look like hearts. she was happier:)
ohmygosh! so did i tell you my mom had a friend named silvana?? pronounced just like my name, just with an 'i'. but anyways, she has a license plate that says 'sylvana' and when i was 5, her and her husband promised me that if i kept up my good grades and when i was old enough to drive, i could have the plate! well my mom found her on facebook! and silvana messaged her saying that its all mine! my mom called the dmv and they said she just has to fill out a couple of forms and itll be all mine!! ahhh im so excited!! :D haha
well, my brothers going home tomorrow:( ugh its gonna be sad saying bye:(
hmmm i have a early soccer game so i should go to sleep.
text me so we can plan a day VERY SOON to hang out!! cause i know youre back in cali and im dying to hang out with my bestfriend again:(
love you kayden!! <3

Hello Again!

Dear Bestest Friend Kayden,
Im so very sorry ive been slacking up on this. idk why considering i havent done ANYTHING this summer! while youre out traveling the world! haha i hope thats working out great for you(: ii cant go to sleep. i just got all teary-eyed cause my mind flashed back to your last day of school and how sad i was:/ then youre party:( aww. i cant believe youre leaving. whyd i have to meet you in your SENIOR year?? thats so lame/: well i know ive already made you promise this but promise me you wont forget about me back here in boring old victorville while youre out living your life? okay thats wrong cause im moving in january. to upland/alta loma! can you believe it?? im so excited, you have no idea! im going to go to a regularrrr school! with regularrr clothes:D and a homecoming! and a football team! and ahhhhh!!(: haha
umm well my brothers in town!! it was great seeing him after like 5 years! it was like meeting him for the first time cause we've both changed so much since we were 10! obviously. lol he's such a dork kayden. i would imagine you 2 would get along. hes just like me, except in boy version. hes weird and funny and odd and akward at times and always happy and random and lots of fun! (: i love that kid! but hes going home in 2 days:( already...
anyways, so now to my forever-lasting boy problems. like always, haha. okay well me&missa do not talk. like ever. and when we do, im like super shortworded and boring and idk why. but he notices it. i havent talked to him on the phone for a week. i think im afraid of what will be said. mmm idk. i hate when i think i like a boy so much, then its just gone. i hate that about myself kayden. whats wrong with me?? grrrrr.
umm so ive been talking a whole bunch to mitchell. hes a sweetheart and its weird cause he acts more like a boyfriend than missa does. but anyways, hes like a really good friend now and im really happy about that. cause you know me, i hate having girl friends:p lol but yeah, he makes me laugh alot. over text! which is really rare(:
hm me&domo are really good friends again! i was kinda getting worried that summer was making us grow apart but we're good again. we talk alot again so im pretty happy:)
and okay so this whole thing happened at johannas quince with this guy, armando. like i told him nothing was happening cause he lives down the hill and it just wouldnt work. and he said he understood. apparently he does not>:/ because im pretty sure he has sam and natasha sympathizing for him. and it annoys me so bad. like hes really sweet and all, when i post mad statuses on facebook he'll ask me whats wrong. and he'll dedicate songs to me and stuff. but hes doing exactly what i told him shouldnt happen! urg.
well, im debating on my car right now. i was going to get a white lexus, but the gas is super expensive! but it also would fit 5 people. so i could take my sisters places and stuff. or im getting a white MR2 which would be great! the gas would be amazingly cheap and its a really nice car but it only fits 2 and i would need to fit at least 3! hmm idk. both of the cars are practically mine already. my nanas lexus and my dads MR2:) great cars if you ask me. then again, we cant all have bmw's mr.richy rich:P lol
oh one of my really close friends juan ortiz, i think you remember stories ive told you about him (he was trying to get at me while i was talking to france then he got a gf and stuff?) lol, yeah well hes going to UCR so you should look after him for me! hes a troublemaker! aha
oh gosh kayden, it just hit me. that dumbass (forgive my language) francisco is gonna be in asb next year. with me. without you. who am i supposed to talk to next to the cupboard?? whos gonna tell it to 'shhh shhh' when it gets too loud?? who am i supposed to tell all my boy confusion too?? whos gonna annoyingly tell me to be quiet during a business meeting or to get to work on something?? im gonna be so lost kayden:( ugh. you suck for graduating. couldnt you get held back just like 3 times?? please please pleaseee:P haha its okay i guess. im really proud of you thoigh kiddo, you made it to the bigleagues! :)
well i hope you and shawna are doing perfect! i really like her. she knows how to cheer me up & you know thats always a plus in my book! lol and shes really nice and a great personality:D good luck with her kayden!(:
um idk theres something weird about me these days, like im always happy. always. like really honestly perfectly happy! :) its great!
but to be truthful kayden, youre the only one that knows this but i still think about france every now and then. and it only makes me dislike him more. how could he say he loves me and literally the next day, its all flipped around?? none of it was real to him. but oh kayden, it was very real to me. and he just didnt care. its whatever though. i understand everything happens for a reason. and trust me, my standards are going to be set muchh higher this year! :p haha
oh oh oh! about the talent show this year! yeah thanks so much for letting me use one of your guitars! i really wanna learn a song and play it there(: i figure im leaving anyways so i might as well go out with a bang! yeah sure im not the greatest singer but im praying to God im not that bad! im not THAT bad right?? like honestly? dont let me go out there and make a fool of myself! lol
well kayden, i hope ive caught you up here! i love you very much and i mss you insanely! its not even funny! come and visit and go swimming as SOON as you get back! okay?(:
yeahp so i love you! kay bye:)

love always,
sylvana:D

Secondhand Serenade--

"Vulnerable"

Share with me the blankets that you're wrapped in
Because it's cold outside, cold outside, it's cold outside
Share with me the secrets that you kept in
Because it's cold inside, cold inside, it's cold inside

[Pre-chorus:]
And you're slowly shaking finger tips
Show that you're scared like me so
Let's pretend we're alone
And I know you may be scared
And I know we're unprepared
But I don't care

[Chorus:]
Tell me, tell me
What makes you think that you are invincible?
I can see it in your eyes that you're so sure
Please don't tell me that I'm the only one that's vulnerable
Impossible

I was born to tell you I love you
Isn't that a song already?
I get a B in originality
And it's true I can't go on without you
Your smile makes me see clearer
If you could only see in the mirror what I see

[Pre-chorus]

[Chorus]

Slow down girl -- you're not going anywhere
Just wait around and see
Maybe I am much more you never know what lies ahead
I promise I can be anyone, I can be anything
Just because you were hurt doesn't mean you shouldn't bleed
I can be anyone, anything, I promise I can be what you need

[Chorus]

Vulnerable..?

I went to Universal Studios today. Thats right, i was in L.A. while you were in New York, life's so fair xP
i had alot of fun though!! i took pictures with my sisters:)
OMG i ate sooooooo much!!! dont believe me?
i ate; 4 pieces of chicken strips, an order of french fries, half a huge chocolate chip cookie, a whole mini apple pie!, some pasta salad, a ceasar salad, a couple bites of pizza, a cinabon stix, and a bowl of DELICIOUS banana chocolate mousse:D lol
omg im a fat little piggy. my mom and dad were making fun of me and saying that i'll never be able to eat out on a date cause the guy would never call me for a second one. lmao!
well i didnt talk to franny today. or missa. or alexis. or nelson. or montana. i had a relaxing day:)

but anyways, i hope youre having an amazing time in new york and that youre living it up out there exploring the U.S. Love You:D

All Time Lows.

wow what a day. i woke up early to go conditioning for soccer again. blehhhhhh. lol then i got home and layed in bed the whole day! :D haha i didnt go to sleep though cause i was busy talking to juan and franny.
juan wanted to know what i thought about nelson. cause nelson told him that he liked me but he didnt think he had a chance.
idk if i do like him or not. i mean he's super funny and sweet and easy to talk to but he doesnt..."keep the flame alive" (remember remember? lol) idk.
franny; i love him . nothing else to it. but i'm just at a crossroads right now. i was thinking. the kind of love that me and franny have is like old married love. not young crazy sweet love. like we fight like an old married couple instead of like the cute gestures that teenagers do these days. and i'm not sure that thats what i want you know?
alexis; he texted me this morning and we were talking and i'm pretty sure he wanted to come over. and at one point i told him he was crazy and he said 'maybe just crazy over you:)' he's such a flirt. lol dont worry i'm not taking anything he says to heart or to mind. you taught me better than that:)
missa; i texted him today. i asked him if we could talk. lots of things were said. and i'm still talking to him so technically theyre still being said. i told him the truth. not the lies i've been telling everyone. including you. so i'll tell you the truth now kayden. i didnt wanna end things with missa because of franny. i really liked missa. alot. and it scared me that i was starting to like him so much, so fast. especially cause vahan told me that he knew what missa was like, and that he wasn't the long relationship type so i was stupid and believed him. and i freaked out and guarded myself up like i always do. because i didnt wanna get hurt. and i didnt want anyone else to know that it was going to hurt me that bad. because ive always wanted people to think i was strong. but kayden, i keep replaying that night with him. that night at the fair. and how it felt to have his arms wrapped around me and my hand in his. ugh kayden idk what i did. idk what i'm doing. i love franny, i really do. but i miss missa. and i think thats taking away from me LIKING franny. idk how to explain it. i'm so screwed up. and i know youre reading this, shaking your head and probably thinking how stupid i am. but ugh. and now he just asked me why i 'b.s d him the way i did' and then abruptly said he was getting offline. so now i'm stuck here simmering my mind trying to figure out what i will say when i talk to him next time..IF i talk to him next time. if he'll talk to me again. i just dont think i could possibly get up the nerves to tell him i miss him. or to tell anyone i miss him. but i do.
well i'm going to universal studios tomorrow so i better get some sleep.
i love you sir(:

Already Gone...

I had drivers ed AGAIN today!! it was way more boring than yesterday and i wanted to just shoot myslelf!! at break, i walked to the liquor store and this guy from my class stopped next to me and i was like 'things are really akward here. no one knoes anyone else.' and he said 'well i'm xavier' and i said 'well i'm sylvana' and he said 'now you know someone. let me make sure i have your name right, sylvana?' and i said yeah but that he would forget it by lunch. then i walked away. and just like that, he wouldnt freaking leave me alone the WHOLE CLASS!!! but my mom came at lunch with some kfc and i ate in the car with amanda and anyssa (amanda had stayed the night) so i didnt have to be a loner at lunch again:)
right after class, i had to go to quince practice. it was pretty fun but my phone was dead so i didnt get to talk to anyone until i got home at 7:(
then i just relaxed but stayed up late talking to MONTANA:) i missed that boy. but it got kinda akward when he tole me that he was an idiot for letting me go and i was his dream girl and i was perfect and all this. it makes me so mad that bpys lose me then just want a second chance cause they realize they were 'idiots'. dumb boys. lol'
well ILOVE YOU:D

California Girl:)

Bleh nothing but driving school today!! It was sooooooo boring and i didnt know anyone so i was a complete loner!! at the breaks AND at lunch. but it will be worth it when i'm driving down the road with the wind in my hair:D lol
i got home and hung out with amanda belmudes and my sister. we played sing it and danced and sang to a bunch of karaoke on youtube!! me and amanda sound really good together when we sing lucky by colbie callait and jason mraz:)
then i had to go to sleep early. bleh:( lol
didnt really talk to anyone today. double blah. haha
IloveYOU!!

Baby, It's Fact!

well today was crazy wierd. francisco texted me and i ignored him. but he texted me again and i replied with the message that he sent me saying 'not what you want nigga' and he was like 'exactly. i dont want what you want sylvana' and i said 'then what do you want francisco??' and he said 'i was referring to what you said you wanted sylvana.' and i said 'i said i wanted to be more than friends with you francisco.' and he said 'yeah you said that and i said i didnt want what you wanted nigga. saying i DO NOT WANT WHAT YOU WANT SYLVANA!!' and i said 'then what the hell do you want francisco??' and he said 'text me when youre not in a bad mood kay:)' and i said 'no. tell me now.' and he said 'well tone the attitude down a notch.' and i said 'yeah sure.'
france; no do it
me; i am
france; okay good
me; okay now would you like to tell exactly what it is that you want francisco?
france; i want things to work out for us
me; then whyd you say that yesterday?
france; say what?
me; that you didnt want what i want 'nigga'
france; i thought you meant you wanted to be friends
me; well i didnt
france; well why didnt you ask me?
me; cause i was so mad. i did not want to talk to you.
france; well i'm sorry
me; its fine.

end of convo. kayden, i think he was lying. i think he knew what he did last night but now he regrets it so he came up with an excuse. i'm so tired of playing these games with him kayden. but its hard to imagine life without him. ugh.

well natasha, anthony, nick and casssondra came over today. anthony broke the net on my trampoline. my mom was so mad. lol me and natasha were acting like idiots. i love her. haha
i hope youre having fun wherever you are right now. youre safety is in my prayers:) i love you!

Lullaby...

Well kayden. i dont know where to start.
last night me and france got into a huge fight. huge. he was saying stuff like 'i'm always fucking wrong to you. i can never be right to you. we think totally different ways. i'm not the right person for you.' etc. i kept telling him that he was wrong and for him to just stop but he wouldnt so i said 'stop. youre hurting me francisco.' and he asked why and i told him 'because i adore you and i'd do anything for you and youre over here saying all this' and he said stuff and then he said ' do you want me out of your life? just tell me and i'm gone because i just want happiness for you.' and i said 'not at all' and then we said some more stuff then he asked me what i wanted and i said 'i want things to work out for us.' and he said 'idk where i stand' and i said 'you never do' and he said 'im just confused' and i said 'about what?' and he said 'because you walked out of my life when my feelings were the strongest ever and idk if i can just take you back' and i said 'do you want me out of your life?' and he said 'no.' and i said 'its the only thing i can do to make things easier for you.' and he said 'well dont' and i said 'its best for you francisco' and he said 'i love you so no. i have to go. goodnight.' etc.
this morning my mom woke me up early to go conditioning with my soccer team. not mandatory but she made me anyways and i was reall mad cause i didnt wanna go. then i got home and was lazy and stuff. lol
then we went to maywood driving school where my mother signed me up for driving classes starting this saturday! so for the next 2 saturdays and the next 2 sundays, from 9 am to 4 pm, i will be in drivers ed:D
i got back and my mom made me text francisco and make things better or whatever. he said something about how he beat me driving first and i was messing around with him saying no he didnt like a million times. then he freaked and was like 'youre so frustrating. shit man. you act so childish like im some game to you' and i was like 'umm i was joking' and he was like 'no im just some game to you. like you can go date missa and come back and think i'll still be there' and i was like 'it wasnt even like that.' blah blah blah.
france; see you never understood me.
me; no it just pisses me off that you seemed like you really didnt wanna be with me but you sure are quick to assume all the bad things that couldve happened.
france; no i did wanna be with you but you never understood me
me; you just keep coming up with different excuses
france; theyre not excuses
me; sure seems like it
france; well they aint
me; well then you keep coming up with different reasons
france; not anymore.
me; alright then.
france; :)k then.
me; so. we're friends:)
france; we always have been though right
me; you know what i meant
france; no i didnt
me; nevermind then.
france; no tell me
me; no. you know you knew what i meant.
france; well if thats what you want then fine
me; thats not what i want but it seems like thats what you want.
france; speak for yourself
me; i am. why dont you.
france; thats not what i want
me; then what do you want?
france; not what you want nigga

in those exact words. with those 5 words, he completely ripped my chest open. stomped on my lungs and spit on my heart. all at once. i dont even know how to explain this. i'm completely just torn. i wont lie to you kayden, i cried. and i think i will again once i'm done with this...it hurt me so bad kayden...


well idk what else to say, i love you so much and i hope youre partying it up:)

Everytime We Touch:D

Today was the last day of school. but it felt like a friday. a regular old "see you monday" friday. mmm whatever i guess. lol the party was pretty fun. nelson came!! and so did franny. but he was acting like a little asshole. he came for like 2o minutes and just left. with a wave. thats it. he is an idiot. ugh. haha nelsons a sweetheart but the whooe freaking time i was talking to him, france was on my mind cause he was making me feel bad. but now i'm just so fucking pissed at francisco.
nelson;; we talked for hours like we had known each other for years. he was so easy to get along with. he made fun of me and i made fun of him. we were acting like best friends. it was really cute. when he was hugging me goodbye, i let go but he pulled me in again and said 'you are beautiful' and i laughed and said 'be quiet' and he laughed and said 'i'm serious' and i was like 'go home!' and we laughed and he left. it was cute.
francisco;;i'm texting him right now and i'm like yelling at him cause he is seriously pissing me off. to no end. ughhhhhh. i still love him though. i just also wanna kill him. fun. lol

i had soccer practice today and 2 things happened!
1) one of the guys asked my dad if he was sure i didn't wanna play club! which means he thinks i'm good enough for club!! i was so excited:D
2) jamelya showed up and started cussing towards camille!! and camille gave her a dirty look and jamelya flipped her off and was like 'youll never amount to anything! camilles a bitch!!' and all this stuff. it was interesting. lol
k
kay well i love you mister mister:))
i hope youre having fun in chicago or wherever you are right now!! :)<3

Ravers In The UK!! :)

Umm I saw you aLOT today! and i was really happy about it:) you came over and i had alot of fun hitting you with my warm ice pack! haha i'm gonna miss you a whole bunch for the next 2 weeks but i hope you have tons of fun!!!
alexis: havent talked to him in SO LONG! lol
franny: idk. i just feel like he's gonna use his charm to suck me in so he can accidentally chew me up and spit me back out. and its wierd cause his charm isnt even working on me anymore. i think its cause i'm like too bothered by the fact that this could all happen again. and i'm so scared that it will.
nelson: i forgot to tell you about him today! he's that guy that randomly texted me on sunday! juan's friend remember? well he goes to victor and he's a freshman! and we've been talking nonstop since! like monday at school, i called him at lunch and we talked for like 15 minutes! (jasmine and him used to go to the same school, julianna's bf chris is one of his bffs and kassidy has a thing going on with one of his other bffs alvaro!!) and kayden, you would like this kid. he doesnt do drugs or drink, he cares about his grades, he's an amazing soccer player and he's a gentleman! he's such a dork too! omg he cannot stop making me laugh! like the most random things! or like i'll say something totally random and wierd and he'll just go along with it and laugh with me!! we're just such big dorks together:)
well gotta go now.
last days tomorrow!
LOVE YOU!!! :)

Ain't Nothing But A Gangster Partyy xD

Well today was your party and it was a whole bunch of fun!! Except for the part where you almost made me cry with your sweet little speech:( lol but it sucked that we had to leave for freaking quince practice!! >:( and I heard the party really kicked off when I left! Grrrrr!! Lol
well i know you probably had a lot of fun. or at least i hope you did:)
um alexis;; pulled up right when i was leaving so i didnt get to talk to him
franny;; i was talking to him for your whole party!! lol well at least texting him!
Love You Kayden!!

Can We Pretend That Airplanes In The Night Sky Are Like Shooting Stars:)

My belly button hurts:/ lol
well today was good!
I had 2 soccer games and one of them was very good because we won AND i got to see alexis! but he lost his ipod there so i feel really bad for him:( and um we lost the second game. lame. haha i got to talk to alexis a whole bunch today! we're actually still texting:)
he says hes going to your party tomorrow and that me and him are gonna have 'fun'? oh dang. haha i doubt he'll even talk to me there but okay. lol keep an eye on us and you tell me if it looks like he likes me or what?? haha
well francisco was oddly sweet today. like i didnt really believe it was him. so wierd. lol
marquies team party was today and it was a pool party and i felt a whole lot more confident in my bikini:DD yay. lol
i really hope you can come to anyssas party but now i remember youre going to chicago huh? ugh i hope its not till at least a little later!!
but anyways, well i'll see you tomorrow! ((((:
iLove You!

Let's Never Get Older ...

Kayden! I saw you today and I was so happy!! Like I had to stare at you for like 30 seconds to make sure my mind wasnt playing tricks on me! You look crazy different with your hair cut and no glasses!! Well it was an interesting day. I didnt talk to alexis much cause you guys have been super busy. silly seniors. haha Umm i got my belly button pierced!! and whoever said it hurts less than cartilage piercing is an EFFING LIAR!! cause i had my cartilage pierced and it did NOT hurt that much! Did you know that the clamp they put on is so tight that it could leave you a bruise? and did you know that when they put the needle in that you can FEEL it pop?? and did you know that when you think the pain is finally over that you look down and realize that the barbel itself isnt even in yet??? Yeah. It HURTS!!! omg. liars said it didnt hurt. ugh. lol
well i guess theres officially something going on with me and france but idk? gosh who knows. haha
oh guess what!! i've lost 8 pounds in 5 days!! :O YAY! lol
well thats all the exciting news for today i guess!
LOVE YOU kayden:D

Don't Fade Away, Don't Fall Asleep:)

Today was...bleh. lol
I'm pretty sure i failed my geometry final. and my spanish final. fml haha
2 hours in P.E!!! everytime i looked to my right, missa was giving me the DEATH STARE!! scary shizz man. lol
franny told me he's getting that feeling back. 'the feeling he felt when he first met me, like OMG i feel something for this girl'
I love him. shhhhh. lol as if its a secret:)
anyways, i didnt talk to alexis today. well like 3 texts but that was it. lame cause he's usually the one to put the smile on my face :)
ohaiiii, anyssas celebrating her bday on the last day of school (wednesday for us normal classmen. lol) AND YOURE INVITED:D lol its a pool party BTW
wow i'm using alot of 'haha's and 'lol's i feel like a dork. (lol)
umm well i've lost 6 pounds in 5 days, tell me how thats possible????? lol i dont eat carbs anymore. but i still eat really yummy stuff:D
i have a bio final tomorrow that i should be studying for...YEAH RIGHT. studying is for losers that don't believe in luck and last minute cramming. yay for procrastinators:) lol
well kayden, i have a suggestion for you. theres a singer that has songs that i believe would be amazing for your voice. i always kept forgetting to tell you about him. i think youve heard him before. Chase Coy? you should do 'if the moon fell down tonight' such a cute song<3 lol
i love you!!! con todo mi corazon:)

I'm Not Saying Goodbye!

^^Rocket to the Moon:)

lol anyways,

I saw you this morning and I was very happy! I actually waited for you by the fence:)

CATCH UP TIME!!

France;; Who really knows these days. And its getting to the point where i'm just like if he wants me then he can show it.

Alexis;; I know its just a flirty thing. he doesnt want anything more. a girls intuition:) but i still like talking to him:)

Holy Mother of GOD!! me and franny are texting and he was just like;

"oh yeah i keep forgetting to ask you out. lol"

WHAT.THA.HECKKKK!!! haha wow that was so random and i swear i still have that 'what the fuck just happened, i'm so confused' look still on my face!! haha

wow.

Oh i ended up not trying out for cheer. cause i didnt want to:) cause i dont like it. and i dont like the girls. they all hate me anyways so no big deal. lol

well im absolutely positive that you and shawna are doing amazing cause i read your tumblr:) lol

I LOVE YOU KAYDENNNNNN C:

I Miss You Already:(

Well today was good. Let me fill you in::

Idk whats going on with franny. (i know, i know "again??") lol but i dont think theres anything going on there. We've just been talking alot lately.

Alexis. Yes alexis. lol We've been talking alot lately and he always says the sweetest things:) But I think thats just a flirty thing. I'm never quite sure. lol But i saw him at soccer practice and he was so cute! lol and when he hugged me goodbye, we were hugging so that his lips were like resting on my neck! and it was beautiful:) lol

Cheer. tryouts started today. I didnt go cause I dont wanna be on the team next year. But then coach called my mom and asked why i wasn't there and if there was anything she did that made me not wanna try out and she said she loves me and she wants me back. Since i dont really have a reason not to, i might as well. The only problem is, I dislike more than half the girls on the team. fun. lol

Well I'm tired so I'm gonna go to sleep. unless alexis texts me:)) lol

I LOVE YOU!!

For Kayden, From Sylvana;;

Yesterday you died due to someone elses drug/alcohol abuse. I never got to tell you... You mean so much to me. Youre one of the only 2 people that can see through my fake smile. You always keep me sane. Even in my most insane moments. I owe you so much and I know I'll never be able to repay you for everything you've done for me. But I can at least try. I haven't always been the greatest friend or listened to you when you've tried to give me orders in asb but I've always cared imensley for you:) you're the best friend a girl could ask for and you've always been there for me. Listening to my drama, wiping my tears, keeping my smiles, and giving the best hugs:P I don't know what I'll do when you're gone but I'll try and get along. I wish you so much luck out there in the world. Stay safe and be strong. Like I know you've always been. Keep your head held high. Embrace the life outh there and keep an eye out so you can warn me about college. Lol I want you to live it up out there but do everything that needs to be done. I'm so scared that you're gonna lose touch and I'll be losing my amazing friend when you leave. Don't do anything stupid but if you do, I expect a report on exactly what happened. I can handle it. Haha please do everything possible to stay the amazing Kayden that I know and love with all my heart:)Be a rockstar in college and make all those kids envy you. I know they will:)

So here's what I'm gonna use this for: I'm gonna write here everyday. Or at least very very constant because you know I'm no good at commitment. But for you I'll try my hardest:)I'll keep you up to date on every little detail of my life. So I'll be keeping up with you at the same time that I'm helping you do your job (keeping me sane:D). I don't expect you to read everyday cause I know you'll be busy as a little college boy! But everytime you're feeling lonely or you think 'I wonder how little old Sylvana is doing?' then you can come read!

I love you with every bit of love I have in me! And there's no one I'm gonna miss more than I'll miss you:)